So, lately I think my adoption posts have just been all over the place. I think it's like anything else where I go through this emotional roller coaster...some days I'm OK with everything, others I'm completely upset about it.
There hasn't been any more movement and when I spoke to our agency, they really don't expect anything for us until at least January. At the earliest. I have to admit, for a moment I was sad. I'm not mad anymore, just sad. Not anxious, just sad. I wonder about it. We are far along enough now where we know he's at least been born...and I just wonder about him all of the time now.
But, I made a promise to myself to keep moving on and not to let it get me down anymore. It's completely out of my hands...and probably for a good reason. If it was up to me, this would have happened a long time ago and I cannot imagine with everything that has happened to us in the past year throwing in an adoption along with it. I truly believe it's God's timing.
So, I continue to wait. Luckily, it's the busiest time of the year for us and I'm thinking that before we all know it, these next few months are going to fly by. Kyleigh has her 8th birthday on Halloween (we had her party this weekend) and we have Thanksgiving and Christmas coming up too. Not to mention if this last month is any indication how busy I'm going to be volunteering at their school, I'm not going to have much time for sitting around and feeling sorry for myself! I guess I've also been very thoughtful lately with myself...thinking of the past, both recent and many many years ago. I'm still dealing with a few things that always seem to creep up this time of year, so I'm sure that's been part of my emotional craziness too.
Hope everyone has a great Halloween and here are a few pictures from our last few crazy weeks.
Reece had to sit on every tractor at the county fair
Riding the Tilt-a-Whirl
Reece, her BFF "A" and myself at her school's fundraiser
Sisters at the state fair
Showing some family love before Kyleigh's party
Happy 8th Birthday Kyleigh!!
1 comment:
boo. i'm sorry to hear there's been no more movement. hang in there! the waiting is SO SO SO hard. glad this hardest part is at least coming at your busiest time of year! hopefully you can keep your mind off of it some (easier said than done, i know!)
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